I last updated my Now page in 2017, so … there’s a lot to catch up on. In 2017 I was still a rookie writer—a very motivated one though. My motivation—together with the quality of my previous relationship—gradually decreased and tanked in spring 2019. I faced the hardest breakup of my life. I went on an eat-pray-love journey right after to meet The One.

Breaking news! I’m finally in a healthy, loving, respectful, fulfilling relationship! The second half of 2019, therefore, was lived in total bliss. So was the first trimester of 2020.

And then COVID-19 hit and screwed everyone’s life up in some way. My life got screwed just a little, but to me it’s still significant. My boyfriend and I were planning to travel for a year together. He had been saving money for this for years. That’s not a possibility right now.

I’ve been “stuck” in the United States since March, as I’m a hypochondriac and don’t want to travel internationally. I have been battling with mild depression for the past 5 to 6 months. I’ve had a mood for nothing, and life seemed like a chore. I had my life planned out, you know? After all those years I spent living from one day to the next, I finally felt like I designed, created, and controlled the life I wanted to live.

How naively human of me, right? The past six months have been a period of grieving, letting go, and readjusting.

I feel much more positive about October.

As you can see, I finally put up something new on this website! I am still in the process of adjusting to my life in the US, to COVID-19, and to not knowing what’s coming up next. So cheers to that, to learning by force to let go of certainty, to feel the real life benefits of acceptance, and doing what I need to do and move forward.